idk

So I sit there wondering,
Why hadn't you replied?
Why?
Must I always be the one to take the first step?
Must I?
So how?
Tell me how?

IDK.

common

You don't want to be lonely anymore.
You don't.
So do I.
Then I realised.
Something common betweeen us.
Something only understood between us.
Something no one who hadn't been through could understand.
So I have tried.
You should too you know.
Seriously.
Okay.
Done.

P.S iheartedsforever!

you won't fail

You won't fail.
You won't fail.
Because I am there.
Because I am there.
There to be there for you.

People like you

I really don't like you.
You and your attitude.
I hate you.
You and your attitude.
You and your damn attitude.
I wonder if you have a conscience.
A conscience.
I bet you don't.
You don't even know I am writing about you.
Seriously.
I hate people like you.
Damn.

But I thought

But I thought it was like that.
Or was it?
Maybe.
Soon enough I will have the answer.
I believe.

what have you really done?

I asked," What have you done? What have you really done?"
What have you really given?
What have you really contributed?
Should I still keep you?
Should I?
Thanks Mian for being there yesterday.
Thanks EDS for making me more determined to leave you.
And so as I pondered, once a many time,
over whether, really,
What have you really done?

fun day

ireallyloveeds!
seriously. =D
hahas.
today was another fun day at eds.
the guys at eds. omg. they so active and hyper.
and i was especting more girls than guys to be in eds.
it was the other way round.
and today yeah we had fun.
we did who's the murdereer,
more acting basically,
me sharing my own story. okay those who came for eds today know lah.
and i love eds! =D
okay i am new in eds.
so i try to be friendly and nice =D (actually i am . =P)
cause you know lah newbie must like that de mah if not feel left out.
omg. i cant wait for the next eds lesson!
i can't wait to see you.
i am mad about eds!
yay!
whhhooo!
i wish we could and i know we could. =D
so i am gonna be more active in the next eds lesson yeah? =D
hahas. i am damn happy today.
as i said, eds brightens up my life and i always look forward to fridays.
cause next day is weekend.
cause is eds day!
cause i get to meet you guys!
and i get to have fun!
and i love eds!
whhheeeee!
hahaas.
but sad lah, next friday is a holiday?!!!!
tsk.
i want eds lah.
holiday= no eds.
wth.
tsk!
okay i swear i am gonna talk to you more often. cause i just read your blog. just knew you dont want that newbie feeling. and actually i wanted to talk more to you lah. but i shy what. tsk. hahas. i just feel that people with similar characters get along well. you and i kinda click, =D
ohyeah and today after eds i went to do geoo project with steph.
then we met clarissa, emily, valerie and isabelle.
hahas and i was like "hi clarissa!". okay actually is she spot me first i think.
i was kinda shock to see her there.
i thought she go home liao to study.
then she was there talking and doing homework with them lah.
so i felt really happy again. =D
loveya clare!
i mean hey, you are a good friend.
someone i can talk to , someone i feel understands me and undeerstands whats going on.
i love sms-ing you like totally. =D
and then wu lao shi ( a few days ago) praised me for my chinese lang du. she and mrs goh. so i was very happy. i mean still am very happy. hey, i mean small encouragement, some praise like these mean the whole to me man, it's like it just gives you encouragement and motivation and life seems so much beautiful. so in conclusion, in life, all we need is a little encouragement and praise now and then to get us back on track in life. =D
i love eds people.
i mean they are so totally funny. =D
okay i swear i love eds like siao.
and i am gonna be more active and enthu in the next eds training! =D
edsssssrocks.
i never knew people could love a ccca so much.
i thought that was like "really?"
then i finally got to experience it like now.
like now i love eds like siao.
like now i love eds people like siao, i love kaili, i love jamie!
and blah blah blah. =D
i think i love people if i love their character =D
like characters that click.
okay, this has been an ultra long post.
i told you i got influenced by eds.
i got so high that
the words just came flooding out. =D
i really love eds!
i really love eds people!
okay.
that's all folks.
byee =D

random

I really hate working with slackers.
If only..
If only I can choose who I want to work with for every project,
if only this world was a little bit more beautiful.
If only this world isn't so scary.
If only everyday was EDS day!
=D

Love and Hate

I really hate studying.
I really hate physics.
I really hate school.
I really hate lessons.
Yawn. Yawn. Yawn. Yawn.
I really love EDS!
I really heart EDS!
I really muack EDS!
=D
P.S Seriously, schools should be demolished.

EDS ROCKS! ! !

I LOVE EDS!
WHY CAN'T EDS BE EVERYDAY?????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
EDS MAKES ME HIGH!!! :)
EDS ROCKS!
EDS YAY!
WHEEEEEEE!

Stressed

I am really stressed.
How to complete the projects and homework you tell me? Sigh.

EDS ROCKS!

EDS IS SO DAMN AWESSSSOOOMMEEE!
YAY.
EDS MAKES ME HIGH!
LALALA.
hahas.
Today's training was so damn funny and awesome.
I got to make new friends and got to enjoy myself.
I got to know Jamie, Kai Li, Joel, Kennedy, Marcus, Fiona, Ching Yi and etc. (Ps if I spelt your name wrongly.)
And first we played who's the murderer which was to train our observation skills. Then we what acting thingy where we had to use mainly our body language to let the audience know where we were. Then we had this dialogue session where Jamie first told us about her class outing then me, Kai Li, Joel and Jun Wei acted out. Hahas. It was damn funny lah. I acted out the role of Guo Wei, a boy whom Jamie has a deep impresssion on. Hahas, overall today was real awesome.
Eveen though I am bigger than them by 1 year but man, they are still awesome to get along with. =DD
They made me realise some stuffs and just made me feel so relaxed!!!
Man, I can't wait for the next EDS session!!!
How I wish one week got twice or more of EDS lah!!!!! =DDDDDDDDDDDD
EDS ROCKS MY WORLD!!!!!!!!!!
EDS WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

random

OMG.
SCHOOOOOLL IS BORRIIINNGGGGGGGG!
I HATE STUDYING.
I HATE SCHOOL.
I HATE LESSONS.
ARGHHHHH.
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
OKAY NVM.
Luckily there's EDS on friday. =D

lalala

Photos from photo-taking day....

Aren't we cute? Hui Ning just likes to act retarded. =)

I think the only people who feel happy are those with no problems in life, no 烦恼 in life and those who forgive and forget. It's like some problems are just so small just forget. And life you be okay and happy :)

I feel so happy nowadays.

Because I have managed to acquire self-discipline and a new state of mind. A new life. Yeah, sure, life sucks with homework and lessons but well, at the end of the day, they come to an end don't they? But seriously, PHYSICS SUCKS! lol. Sorry Clarissa, it's the truth, that physics sucks.
I guess, I learnt so many that well, life just seems brighter and nicer.

A new post.

This is my first post since May.
It's been a long 2 months indeed. Previously, I didnt post because I saw no purpose in doing so and I wanted to protect myself because I was still deeply wounded at that time. Now well, I guess the wound has healed a lot. A lot till I no longer think about it as often. Now I love my family a lot and have definitely grown a lot. In fact, I can't tell how much I have grown. I learnt to be more sensitive just like today. I just learnt many many lessons.
And yesterday's night conversation with Clarissa was helpful. It made me well kind of feel better and not feel so scared to irritate people with my questions. It just made me feel better and well, I just felt better.
And thoroughout this period of 2 months, I gained courage, grew and became a stronger person. I guess in our life, we need obstacles in order to make us stronger. I think that's very true. Because everytime a new obstacle comes up, I will tell myself " I can overcome it.".
And today, I gained courage and confidence to tell you something. I guess well, with my new-found maturity, I will understand and accept even if you don't want this friendship. And I guess we need time to start all over again. I hope to see you post about it on your blog so that at least I have an answer. If I don't see the post by tomorrow, I will forget this friendship and learnt to accept it. (Okay, this sounds harsh.)
There are so many things I want to tell you but I can't. Because I can't. Because you won't listen. But it's okay. I understand.
Thank you for teaching me sensitiveness. Just like today, the most important thing was that everyone got to play the frisbee challenge. Because we have to spare a thought for others. And this will be the last time I am posting about you. Unless of course things change for the better. And I do hope to see changes for the better . :)
Okay, maybe I shouldn't have posted this. I feel a bit down now. :(